In my travels, I have heard that some people, as a result of their economic situation, have actually tried hard to contract HIV so that they would be eligible for the social services that would not ordinarily be afforded them if they were not HIV positive. In that regard they refer to HIV as “the gift”.
Instead of looking at HIV as “the gift”, we can consider HIV as an opportunity. A opportunity for what you ask? A opportunity for knowledge,wisdom, self awareness, service, improved self discipline, and many other thoughts and actions that would help raise our individual vibrations. If we do that, we will tap into that “God” energy, and raise the vibratory rate of the planet.
From my perspective, it seems deplorable that the conditions that we live in encourage this type of behavior and thought. Unfortunately, because so many are suffering without jobs, food, shelter and hope, the desperation of trying to satisfy those unmet needs have become, for some, a real catalyst for this type of thinking. Needing food and shelter is real, and times are really hard for so many in the U.S. Politics is actually making it worse right now by cutting the funding for the programs that are providing the safety net that is helping to meet the basic needs of so many.
Being afraid that I would die because of HIV has caused me to think about how I am responsible for my situation. How the hell did something like this happen to a nice guy like me, and what can I do about it now? HIV has forced me to understand some of the patterns that will result in suffering and death IF I resist the changing my thoughts and actions. Using drugs, exchanging bodily fluids (unprotected sex), stress, poor nutrition, being unforgiving, and not giving and receiving love are all contributing to the proliferation of the disease. Now we need new strategies and tactics, and we need employ new wisdoms in order change the politics that is allowing starvation and homelessness in an abundant world. Individually, changing those behaviors has changed my reality, as well.
When we are courageous enough to live honestly in that reality, meaning when we are able to disclose our situation to ourselves and other so that we are truly living in the flow of life, we become a part of a higher vibration. That higher vibration seems to have an important effect on individual physical wellness. It also has assisted in the evolution of thinking about HIV, and has helped to diminish the fear of, grow the knowledge about, and help develop solutions for changed behavior as it pertains to HIV. It just so happens that the same process and strategies we have used in this instance can be replicated in every area of our lives!
For those who are interested in preventing contracting HIV, knowledge is powerful. But, knowledge applied is wisdom. Fear can be a useful tool as well as long as it does not keep us “stuck on stupid”! Trying to contract HIV in order to get social services is stupid.
Preventing or living with HIV is a challenge for us all. Providing for our basic needs such as food, shelter, sex and clothing present some of the same challenges. In our effort to satisfy those needs, it is not surprising to me that some would go as far as to consider, and even attempt to become a host to the HIV retrovirus for the purpose of getting access to resources that are not available to all. I think it is crazy that in a world that is as abundant as the one we live in, that there are so many that are living without, but that is another story for another time.
I am simply saying that the lessons about living with HIV can be “the gift”, not contracting the virus. It may seem to some that contracting HIV is preferable to homelessness or starvation, but that same desperation is what has motivated our willingness to fight for our lives!
Let’s take this opportunity to practice the behaviors like deciding to use condoms, or employ harm reduction methods like needle exchange, or living authentically and not allowing shame and stigma to cause the kind of stress that makes people more susceptible to transmit HIV, and situations more likely where HIV will find new a host. I know that when we do that, we will be in the final stages of an era, and at the dawning of a new beginning in which we as a human race acknowledge that love heals all.